not that i don't love you [nate]

[Rachel Marie Davreaux]

rachel says . . .

"The hormone aren't messing with my head. You're just acting like dad and you need to stop pushing away the people that you care about before you end up like him."

[Nathaniel Phillip Evans]

"I didn't push anyone away, damnit. The people I cared about left. So get off your high horse. Jesse's living with Erik and you have Jean and [sudden pause] I'm not pushing people away."

[Rachel Marie Davreaux]

rachel says . . .

"You're kidding me right? You're freaking kidding me! You went to med school where was Jesse supposed to go as he's bumming through life! At least he didn't choose Michael! And don't you dare turn this on me! Jean and I were already practically married. We just got married now because I'm pregnant! I've been living with Jean for the past five years and I didn't leave you. I never left you! So stop acting like a fucking a child Nate. Prove to dad that you're not everything that he says you are!"

[Nathaniel Phillip Evans]

"Yeah, fine, you're right. I'm pushing everyone away. Just messing it all up like I always do. And nothing I ever do will make Dad think he was wrong about me. I don't need his approval. Not anymore. It just took leaving town for me to realize it. You know what, I'm getting this from Dad and Michael, I don't need it from you of all people."

[Rachel Marie Davreaux]

rachel says . . .

"And you wonder why I think there's something wrong because? Seriously you don't just roll over like this. Tell me what you need. I can't and won't sit back and watch you self destruct. I could watch dad do it because he was so distant but not you, never you."

[Nathaniel Phillip Evans]

"I'm not just rolling over! God, what is wrong with this family. Just because I don't care what some detached psychopathic billionaire thinks of me doesn't mean I'm rolling over. It means I'm getting a mind of my own. And it's about time. My whole freaking life it's been Nate, Michael Evans son. Nate, Rachel's brother. Nate, captain of the soccer team, president of the fraternity, golden boy. When I left it was just...Nate. And now I want to keep it that way. It's not rolling over. It's growing up."

[Rachel Marie Davreaux]

rachel says . . .

"Ok so you grew up but that's not the problem here. If you want me to stop nagging you have to tell me what you're not telling me because if you don't I'll just assume that there's something wrong until you do."

[Nathaniel Phillip Evans]

"Go ahead and keep nagging. You're not going to get a different answer. I don't have a different answer to give you."

[Rachel Marie Davreaux]

rachel says . . .

"God you're infuriating. Nate you could never get a job never go back to school and live on the couch in the living room in my house for all I care. You should know that I'm your number one supporter so long as you're not going to do something that's going to hurt you! That's not the issue here. The issue is there's something that you're not telling me and it has me worried sick. Something bad happened didn't it?"

[Nathaniel Phillip Evans]

"[sigh] Yeah. Something bad happened. But it's not why I left school and came home. It's just - it's not important anymore."

[Rachel Marie Davreaux]

rachel says . . .

"But it was and probably still is and you're just trying to pacify me. You can tell me anything you know that. I wont' tell anyone else not even Jean."

[Nathaniel Phillip Evans]

"I don't need to talk it out, Rach. Something happened. It sucked. It's done. It's in the past. The only thing talking is going to do is remind me that it happened and that I can't change it."

[Rachel Marie Davreaux]

rachel says . . .

"Please Nate just tell me what happened so that I don't have to worry anymore."

[Nathaniel Phillip Evans]

"God, you're as stubborn as Dad is. There was a girl. Now there isn't. And it sucked. End of story."

[Rachel Marie Davreaux]

rachel says . . .

"What did she do to you Nate? She must have meant something considering the very pretty ring that you've been wearing ever since you came back into town."